't-minus' (july 2009)

These words falling to the page
arrange
themselves
in an impolite way.
These sighs marking off the days
display
themselves
in a frightening way.

And I don't know if what I feel
is a ghost or something that's real.
And I don't know if what you say
will follow me when I'm away.

These times ticking on the face
replace
the times
I could just be alone.
These words creaking in my throat
devote
themselves
to praising your ghost.

And I don't know if what I feel
is a ghost or something that's real.
And I don't know if what you say
will follow me when I'm away.

These waves crashing on the shore
implore
that you
will forget my name.
These words burning in my ears
all fear
that you
are wishing the same.

'falling for a ghost' - (july 2009)

I don't want to leave
I don't want to stay
I don't want to wake up
just being in your way

I'm paper thin
resting on this glass
whittling away
the checkers of the past
crying for your skin
falling through your eyes
not remembering
the truth or the lies

you're lying (I don't want to leave)
you know (I don't want to go)
I'm dying (I don't want to leave)
hello (no I don't want to go)
to say hello

I start to wonder
when you're not around
if I'm the only person
who thinks that the sound
of an ambulance rushing
to take me away
is the prettiest thing
that I could hear today

I'm dying (I don't want to leave)
you know (I don't want to go)
you're falling (I don't want to leave)
I hope (no I don't want to go)
for a ghost

I'm wishing I was there
like the rain on your cheek
a memory spared
though we'll never speak
you might think of me
when you wipe me from your face
fall into his arms
I'm erased, erased

you're forgetting (I don't want to leave)
I know (I don't want to go)
you're letting (I don't want to leave)
I hope (no I don't want to go)
me go