Tuesday, November 24, 2009

‘birdsong’ (november 2009)

it was a girl-
with words he hung back
pensive
waiting to see
what moves were being made

she could defeat him with silence
play Cordelia to his maddening Lear
while unrealizing
that silence was to this magpie mind
a condemnation
the damning with faintest praise

Saturday, November 14, 2009

'lovesong' (november 2009)

he fell at her knees
remote, exhausted
spent
felt himself old
a dry heart and head
cooling
but warm in her embrace
her skin singing

a murmur, the feeling
of skin tightening
a rustle of skin
as arms wrap tighter.
he felt himself heavy
a condensation on her
but
she remains resilient
and her nose meets his neck
while his heart resumes its common time

the silence following breaks
is halted
by the flick of hairs
and the bubble of evaporation
her teeth click
as his fingers trace the ridges of her spine
thrumming out a familiar rhythm

he would ask for music
if her body weren't singing

Sunday, November 1, 2009

'a failure' (october 2009)

my love how I can't wait
to fail you
to fall blistering into
a raft of melodies
and ride a refrain for the rest of my days
to let my heart be made known
and let my feeble waiting voice
sing soft under your spell
to break down and sink deep
and drown in the ink of your eyes
to do this all
unscripted, unanticipated
when you least need it the most
to say your name
a chorus of wind and rain

Saturday, October 17, 2009

'history' (october 2009)

under the weight of binary code
I can feel your presence
my secret
made known
in the smell of wood smoke
stinging the wet winter air

and each portal is a portent
I can see my history briefly paused at
and reified
in the clutch of symbols and syntax

under the weight of your arms
I can feel your presence
our secret
made known
in whispers and stirrings
straining the sheets and pillows

and each sigh is a symphony
I can feel my history lifting
and evaporating
in the clutch of your hands and eyes

Saturday, September 26, 2009

'gravity' (september 2009)

She held her breath
She held her breath of course
I heard her breathe
I heard her breathe of course

The sun is shining
The waves are crashing on the shore
Shadows moving
And I can't leave her anymore

The sun is crashing
The waves are shining on the shore
Tidelines moving
And I won't leave her anymore

I held her hand
I held her hand of course
She held my hand
She held my hand of course

My voice whispers
To her eyes shining peacefully
Fingers folding
Fall into gravity

Her voice is shining
Her eyes whisper perfectly
Timelines folding
Bend into gravity

I held her breath
I held her breath of course
She held my breath
She held my breath of course

Sunday, September 20, 2009

'envisionist' (september 2009)

she could choose the music
just. so.
perfect for the times
he wished to possess her heart

he could listen to the rustle
the hiss of history
as words drift up from the past
and he would desire to form
her actions and recations
propositions and responses
and construct in his mind
the scenes he never could know

the order, perfect
catering to his fears or hopes
(but tending to the former)
he craftily allows
lips, skin and sex
to writhe up from the shadows
of a time he never knew

while autobiographical
he seethes and scorns
imagines and nightmares
and fails to put to lines
in broad-flailing fashion
the yearning
of his far-specific heart

Friday, September 18, 2009

'return to desire' (september 2009)

I want to see
feel
what it is
to be the movement and trembling
that falls down to a page
to be the repayment of a debt
and the promise of more

your liquor
a fire that burns to be poured out
is all I want to claim and seal
strip back
peel away
though always looking at the outside of things

I want to tell you
everything
I want to sense
that my name is somehow
embossed in clay
written on the wind
seared into your skin

I want to drink deep your thoughts
I want to swallow your mind
memory and body
heart and soul
the atomic tick-tock of everything
that your heart has ever known

through my eye
your curves and body
collapse to two-dimensions
and your lines on the screen
fall into shapeless place

Saturday, July 25, 2009

't-minus' (july 2009)

These words falling to the page
arrange
themselves
in an impolite way.
These sighs marking off the days
display
themselves
in a frightening way.

And I don't know if what I feel
is a ghost or something that's real.
And I don't know if what you say
will follow me when I'm away.

These times ticking on the face
replace
the times
I could just be alone.
These words creaking in my throat
devote
themselves
to praising your ghost.

And I don't know if what I feel
is a ghost or something that's real.
And I don't know if what you say
will follow me when I'm away.

These waves crashing on the shore
implore
that you
will forget my name.
These words burning in my ears
all fear
that you
are wishing the same.

Friday, July 24, 2009

'falling for a ghost' - (july 2009)

I don't want to leave
I don't want to stay
I don't want to wake up
just being in your way

I'm paper thin
resting on this glass
whittling away
the checkers of the past
crying for your skin
falling through your eyes
not remembering
the truth or the lies

you're lying (I don't want to leave)
you know (I don't want to go)
I'm dying (I don't want to leave)
hello (no I don't want to go)
to say hello

I start to wonder
when you're not around
if I'm the only person
who thinks that the sound
of an ambulance rushing
to take me away
is the prettiest thing
that I could hear today

I'm dying (I don't want to leave)
you know (I don't want to go)
you're falling (I don't want to leave)
I hope (no I don't want to go)
for a ghost

I'm wishing I was there
like the rain on your cheek
a memory spared
though we'll never speak
you might think of me
when you wipe me from your face
fall into his arms
I'm erased, erased

you're forgetting (I don't want to leave)
I know (I don't want to go)
you're letting (I don't want to leave)
I hope (no I don't want to go)
me go

Thursday, January 22, 2009

'georgia' - (december 2008)

I went to the shoreline
and planted my foot in the sea
waiting to witness
how my toes would turn to roots
in the salt water
and my outstretched hand
would blur into a canopy

but the breakers on rock-shores-
the rounding of pebbles and stones-
spoke to me
like a whisper of bark
falling from arbutus trees
saying I have no place
among the land-makers
among their rock-breaking waves

but roots deepen, ensnare
and the rustle of feet
across new-minted sand
says that the waves
are just as untested,
unwelcome,
here on the shoreline
the in-between land
of their advances, retreats

in my ebb from the shore
back to the land-ocean
the sea laughs
at my notions of equivalence
as I retreat to the line
of less adventurous pines
the greedy waves suck away
at all hints of my passage
desperate
in keeping their no-man's-land
while
the crack of rock-sand
keeps us both at bay

'ontophony' - (january 2009)

When I first heard you
you moaned
in a great quiet,
and your tremors floated,
flung distant, free,
on the wings of sparrows
awakening with the dawn.

When we first came to speak
I laughed
at the ease of your words
sliding through my nerves,
coursing down through bone
and blood,
flying down, bursting through skin
burying themselves
in the cackling of keys
or the low chuckle
of pen across paper.

When you first moved
I swayed
my arms spread wide on the wind
splayed
against the push of your breath
I stiffened
and twisted
yearning to feel your force
and bend my bow
to drink deep your current
and travel far on your song.

But my arms
fragile sticks
were useless to tame your wind
and broke, useless
your voice a distant drum
carrying an echo of sound
miles across the ocean
but no longer could I respond
to your rhythm-
my head, sunk,
confounded,
released the memory of your shadow
to the whisper of water
hissing under the keel.

But the currents,
clueless, careless
gravid with possibility
looked alive
with the stumbling fire
of my clumsy land-bound lips
shot through with saline,
and were at once
known
and unknowable
ancient as my newborn heart,
and all at once
in a great fire
were a chorus
poised on the edge of a melody.

The plying of waves
shot patterns
and rhythm
tesselations!
whispers of tone!
and your voice,
audibly unheard,
singing in its
great quiet
music-
the tune of my being.